Regardless of how successful or confident you are (or looked), there bound to be some holes in that brick wall you built to protect yourself. These holes are you weaknesses and once any of them are given a blow hard enough, the wall will crumble into pieces ... and rebuilding will not be able to take place within a short time
I cant stand being repeatedly called short ... (although i know i am and i had trained to bear any insults coming) But sometimes it just overwhelming ... and this brings me back to the low esteem which had alwis been protected by my 'wall'.
From young i had gone through countless comments bout my height. Seeing my younger brothers and cousins towering me is bad enough.. now even their girlfriends and my much younger female cousins ... Maybe for gals not so bad, but for guys, height is a source of pride and superiority. In sports, whether its football, basketball or volleyball, i'm always restricted due to my height. Hence the reason i tried so hard to jump higher, hoping to grow taller.. In de end, i was de shortest high jump champion in my school when i was 14, but my height nvr increased at all =( *i will happily trade my tropy for a few inches...*
Even when i interested in gals during my secondary education .. i''m lacked the confidence to really believe i'm any way superior to the other male classmates
Now that i gonna teach soon.. i'm still afraid my height will weaken my authority in class ...
Another weakness i have is I cant deal with false accusations ...i will really flare up sometimes =x I remembered that when i was young, my mum accuse me of something i din do ... i shouted rudely at her back ... when my older bro accuse me, we argue to smash radio ... until army my officer accuse me.. i still cant stop fighting back.. hiaz.. maybe i too head strong ba ...
Things we done 1. See snow!! 2. Walk on ice literally 3. Skiing and knocking down people like playing bowling =x 4. Eat lots of kimichi, steamboats and meaty 5. Ate Lotteria.. which is sooo fabulous 6. Sing together in a small cabin and score 99 with Top of the World!! 7. Experience the cold and dry weather .. my shorts create so much static that there are noise evey time i move -.-" 8. Sleep and sleep on bus =x 9. Gossip about a noisy boy 10. Takes lots of crazy photos and videos
and many more!!!
It will be 2010 soon ... gotta reflect and improve myself ^^
10:13 PM
Tuesday, October 20
Dear Friends,
I'm sorry. I realized I haven't been a good friend ... Seems like the distance between most of friends are getting bigger and bigger =( sometimes i do reminisce bout the past, the closeness we shared... it seems a distant past ... now besides my darling, it seems i dun have much true frens anymore... rather lonely sometimes...
maybe its time i be more proactive bout maintaining contact ...
11:50 AM
Friday, September 25
Recess Week Lo !!!!
Actually almost every week seems like recess week =x But recess week means that i have plenty of things to finish before the deadline draws nearer ....
1. Fieldtrip + Brochure + Presentation + Reflection 2. Presentation on Maritime Trade in Tang China 3. Critique a text and creating a noticing activity of relative pronouns with it
Hope i can finish all!
Meanwhile the trip to Snowy korea is drawing nearer too ^^ (also the day which marks the new height of emptiness in my bank =x)
11:20 AM
Saturday, August 8
11:04 AM
Sunday, July 26
I'm back for blogging ^^
I've officially finished 4 weeks of my teaching practice.. and have one more week to slack =x Cos i finished everything which I needed to do ^^ Taught about 12 periods i think... and i proud to say that my lessons had been enjoyable for the students and for myself ^^ Compared to my previous school, i must say i'm much happier over here ~ school to restart in 3 weeks time ... and i'm looking forward to it =x
on 24th June also marked the 42th mth of yingz and me "monthniversary", which means we meen together for 3.5 years already!!! I just hope that the happiness will continue for 1 year, 10 years or even 100 years =x
11:10 AM
Sunday, June 14
I am back from China!!!
It is enjoying and also somehow enriching due to the many explanations bout fengshui, jade, tea and even pearls ....
It is impossible to list everything down.. so i just note some snippets
1. We climbed the Great Wall!!! Super tiring *although we only ascend like 5 stops* 2. Visited the palace! Huge! 9999 rooms! but we felt most look similar lei =x 3. Amazed by the teracotta armies in Xi-an, they just started evacuating de second time when we went, lucky lucky ^^ So many secret still unresolved despite the science now ... 4. Be a good son and bought things for my parents, which they really like ^^ 5. Most imptly, thru the trip we also learnt many other things (which i will not say here) ~
Now i feel even happier and proud to be of chinese origin!!
不登长城非好汉！
9:18 PM
Tuesday, June 2
Yingz passed her advance theory lo ^^ Happy for her that her last minutes effort never go to waste. Too bad that she never managed to cross over to the degree course... but well maybe is a blessing in disguise? ^^ I am slightly disappointed with my results.. but it is still ok, at least it met my minimum expectations of at least a B for all subjects ^^
We are going to china this thursday le. Really looking forward to it! *despite the service by the stupid agency who arranged it for us =x*
I am watching 《学警狙击》, the third part of this series .. it is so exciting!!!
Love this couple in the show so handsome and pretty! *btw the gal is not gilliam from twins... although she look similar* their story very sweeet also... but too bad they cant be together in the end =(
Thisdrama created such a big impact in hk that when one of the character died, many people complained and even swear not to watch the show again !!
In the end, this character, will be spawned into a movie which will include several big casts!!
2:26 PM
Wednesday, May 20
Been sometime since i updated....
Been involved in many injuries recently =( 1. I somehow cut my fist when jogging... 2. my computer of almost 5 yrs finally died on me ... causing me almost 350 bucks to replace the psu, cpu and mb... and ram... -.-" 3. I also cut my sis car accidentally when driving up a car park on the same day... felt so apologetic bout it ... (when i realized that.. i even touch the part where it was cut... and i cut myself also T.T) 4. On the same day i forgot my appointment with yingz... cause hurt to her and myslef.. so sorry.. 5. My luck havent change for the better as I think i hurt my foot today while running.. again...
Suay Suay GO AWAY!!!!
*looking forward to my china trip ^^*
3:19 PM
Monday, January 11
Nobody is borne perfect.
Regardless of how successful or confident you are (or looked), there bound to be some holes in that brick wall you built to protect yourself. These holes are you weaknesses and once any of them are given a blow hard enough, the wall will crumble into pieces ... and rebuilding will not be able to take place within a short time
I cant stand being repeatedly called short ... (although i know i am and i had trained to bear any insults coming) But sometimes it just overwhelming ... and this brings me back to the low esteem which had alwis been protected by my 'wall'.
From young i had gone through countless comments bout my height. Seeing my younger brothers and cousins towering me is bad enough.. now even their girlfriends and my much younger female cousins ... Maybe for gals not so bad, but for guys, height is a source of pride and superiority. In sports, whether its football, basketball or volleyball, i'm always restricted due to my height. Hence the reason i tried so hard to jump higher, hoping to grow taller.. In de end, i was de shortest high jump champion in my school when i was 14, but my height nvr increased at all =( *i will happily trade my tropy for a few inches...*
Even when i interested in gals during my secondary education .. i''m lacked the confidence to really believe i'm any way superior to the other male classmates
Now that i gonna teach soon.. i'm still afraid my height will weaken my authority in class ...
Another weakness i have is I cant deal with false accusations ...i will really flare up sometimes =x I remembered that when i was young, my mum accuse me of something i din do ... i shouted rudely at her back ... when my older bro accuse me, we argue to smash radio ... until army my officer accuse me.. i still cant stop fighting back.. hiaz.. maybe i too head strong ba ...
Things we done 1. See snow!! 2. Walk on ice literally 3. Skiing and knocking down people like playing bowling =x 4. Eat lots of kimichi, steamboats and meaty 5. Ate Lotteria.. which is sooo fabulous 6. Sing together in a small cabin and score 99 with Top of the World!! 7. Experience the cold and dry weather .. my shorts create so much static that there are noise evey time i move -.-" 8. Sleep and sleep on bus =x 9. Gossip about a noisy boy 10. Takes lots of crazy photos and videos
and many more!!!
It will be 2010 soon ... gotta reflect and improve myself ^^
10:13 PM
Tuesday, October 20
Dear Friends,
I'm sorry. I realized I haven't been a good friend ... Seems like the distance between most of friends are getting bigger and bigger =( sometimes i do reminisce bout the past, the closeness we shared... it seems a distant past ... now besides my darling, it seems i dun have much true frens anymore... rather lonely sometimes...
maybe its time i be more proactive bout maintaining contact ...
11:50 AM
Friday, September 25
Recess Week Lo !!!!
Actually almost every week seems like recess week =x But recess week means that i have plenty of things to finish before the deadline draws nearer ....
1. Fieldtrip + Brochure + Presentation + Reflection 2. Presentation on Maritime Trade in Tang China 3. Critique a text and creating a noticing activity of relative pronouns with it
Hope i can finish all!
Meanwhile the trip to Snowy korea is drawing nearer too ^^ (also the day which marks the new height of emptiness in my bank =x)
11:20 AM
Saturday, August 8
11:04 AM
Sunday, July 26
I'm back for blogging ^^
I've officially finished 4 weeks of my teaching practice.. and have one more week to slack =x Cos i finished everything which I needed to do ^^ Taught about 12 periods i think... and i proud to say that my lessons had been enjoyable for the students and for myself ^^ Compared to my previous school, i must say i'm much happier over here ~ school to restart in 3 weeks time ... and i'm looking forward to it =x
on 24th June also marked the 42th mth of yingz and me "monthniversary", which means we meen together for 3.5 years already!!! I just hope that the happiness will continue for 1 year, 10 years or even 100 years =x
11:10 AM
Sunday, June 14
I am back from China!!!
It is enjoying and also somehow enriching due to the many explanations bout fengshui, jade, tea and even pearls ....
It is impossible to list everything down.. so i just note some snippets
1. We climbed the Great Wall!!! Super tiring *although we only ascend like 5 stops* 2. Visited the palace! Huge! 9999 rooms! but we felt most look similar lei =x 3. Amazed by the teracotta armies in Xi-an, they just started evacuating de second time when we went, lucky lucky ^^ So many secret still unresolved despite the science now ... 4. Be a good son and bought things for my parents, which they really like ^^ 5. Most imptly, thru the trip we also learnt many other things (which i will not say here) ~
Now i feel even happier and proud to be of chinese origin!!
不登长城非好汉！
9:18 PM
Tuesday, June 2
Yingz passed her advance theory lo ^^ Happy for her that her last minutes effort never go to waste. Too bad that she never managed to cross over to the degree course... but well maybe is a blessing in disguise? ^^ I am slightly disappointed with my results.. but it is still ok, at least it met my minimum expectations of at least a B for all subjects ^^
We are going to china this thursday le. Really looking forward to it! *despite the service by the stupid agency who arranged it for us =x*
I am watching 《学警狙击》, the third part of this series .. it is so exciting!!!
Love this couple in the show so handsome and pretty! *btw the gal is not gilliam from twins... although she look similar* their story very sweeet also... but too bad they cant be together in the end =(
Thisdrama created such a big impact in hk that when one of the character died, many people complained and even swear not to watch the show again !!
In the end, this character, will be spawned into a movie which will include several big casts!!
2:26 PM
Wednesday, May 20
Been sometime since i updated....
Been involved in many injuries recently =( 1. I somehow cut my fist when jogging... 2. my computer of almost 5 yrs finally died on me ... causing me almost 350 bucks to replace the psu, cpu and mb... and ram... -.-" 3. I also cut my sis car accidentally when driving up a car park on the same day... felt so apologetic bout it ... (when i realized that.. i even touch the part where it was cut... and i cut myself also T.T) 4. On the same day i forgot my appointment with yingz... cause hurt to her and myslef.. so sorry.. 5. My luck havent change for the better as I think i hurt my foot today while running.. again...
