Regardless of how successful or confident you are (or looked), there bound to be some holes in that brick wall you built to protect yourself. These holes are you weaknesses and once any of them are given a blow hard enough, the wall will crumble into pieces ... and rebuilding will not be able to take place within a short time
I cant stand being repeatedly called short ... (although i know i am and i had trained to bear any insults coming) But sometimes it just overwhelming ... and this brings me back to the low esteem which had alwis been protected by my 'wall'.
From young i had gone through countless comments bout my height. Seeing my younger brothers and cousins towering me is bad enough.. now even their girlfriends and my much younger female cousins ... Maybe for gals not so bad, but for guys, height is a source of pride and superiority. In sports, whether its football, basketball or volleyball, i'm always restricted due to my height. Hence the reason i tried so hard to jump higher, hoping to grow taller.. In de end, i was de shortest high jump champion in my school when i was 14, but my height nvr increased at all =( *i will happily trade my tropy for a few inches...*
Even when i interested in gals during my secondary education .. i''m lacked the confidence to really believe i'm any way superior to the other male classmates
Now that i gonna teach soon.. i'm still afraid my height will weaken my authority in class ...
Another weakness i have is I cant deal with false accusations ...i will really flare up sometimes =x I remembered that when i was young, my mum accuse me of something i din do ... i shouted rudely at her back ... when my older bro accuse me, we argue to smash radio ... until army my officer accuse me.. i still cant stop fighting back.. hiaz.. maybe i too head strong ba ...
Regardless of how successful or confident you are (or looked), there bound to be some holes in that brick wall you built to protect yourself. These holes are you weaknesses and once any of them are given a blow hard enough, the wall will crumble into pieces ... and rebuilding will not be able to take place within a short time
I cant stand being repeatedly called short ... (although i know i am and i had trained to bear any insults coming) But sometimes it just overwhelming ... and this brings me back to the low esteem which had alwis been protected by my 'wall'.
From young i had gone through countless comments bout my height. Seeing my younger brothers and cousins towering me is bad enough.. now even their girlfriends and my much younger female cousins ... Maybe for gals not so bad, but for guys, height is a source of pride and superiority. In sports, whether its football, basketball or volleyball, i'm always restricted due to my height. Hence the reason i tried so hard to jump higher, hoping to grow taller.. In de end, i was de shortest high jump champion in my school when i was 14, but my height nvr increased at all =( *i will happily trade my tropy for a few inches...*
Even when i interested in gals during my secondary education .. i''m lacked the confidence to really believe i'm any way superior to the other male classmates
Now that i gonna teach soon.. i'm still afraid my height will weaken my authority in class ...
Another weakness i have is I cant deal with false accusations ...i will really flare up sometimes =x I remembered that when i was young, my mum accuse me of something i din do ... i shouted rudely at her back ... when my older bro accuse me, we argue to smash radio ... until army my officer accuse me.. i still cant stop fighting back.. hiaz.. maybe i too head strong ba ...