Life goes on as usual~ Whether its bitter or sweet.
For those who worried bout me, thx. Although i know many dun bother at all... :( Anway i now okay, i take things in my stride. No pt dwelling But i must thx audz, who actually call to care for me (i promise u nxt time u got any prob call me, i'll be there~ but limited to one time only ok, cos ur home bit far le...haha)
Finally i'm done wif my hectic 9-10pm schedule... for the time being. Actually when u work, no nid eat, can trim fats... cos i avg 1-2 meals. But think eat too many instant noodles these few days... a bit addicted liao... my mee taste better each time
Strange ar, singapore so small meh? One of my student actually same sp batch as me again... and even smaller world. And today i actually see a crush of mine when during my poly days... edm classmate, but jus cant rem her name. (maybe cos the crush last veri short ba...) Very pretty le. After so many yrs like no change. I would have said 'hi' if i rem her name... haiz. think i'm totally brainwashed by the army... poor memory~
Tomorrow off, but dunno wat to do... Prob go for a haircut (almost 2 mth le... sigh, no time) then rot at home. Dun feel like going out cos i still nid to be back office by 5 plus... wats the pt?
One of my good fren actually commit suicide for his gf... omg... He alwis been those playboy type n i cant believe that he actually done that... for this girl Din know love can make one so fragile... But if it was me will i do that...? No. I will be willing to die protecting things i love but not willing to die after losing the things i love... Not worth it...
Have u ever felt helpless and useless before? I have, even at this very moment. On the outside i seem to be doing well, smiling and enjoying life. But deep down i feel so tired... so tired of being happy-go-lucky, so tired of cheering up people. Work have been tough sometimes even unbearable but i jus have withstand the pressure. I never tell anything to my family no matter how.
Cos i know they are troubled enuff. Elder bro lookin for work, sis abroad working, young bro in army suffering. My dad health hasn't be good. From my poly days we have to bring him to the hospital frequently. While people were enjoying their vacations, i have to stay at the hospital the whole day witing... Hated that feeling, but deep down i know, this cant be helped... not anyone fault.
Now come the big blow.... Just like the drama serials, something worse have to come down. Now my dad need dialysis... Ya, now i realised why so many people are to NKF. Cos 1 session cost a hefty 260+... And a week have to do a few times... Hopefully NKF can help or else it is impossible to sustain. even though my sis n i is working. Wat can i do wif my petty income...? I am prepared to use all my savings if the need arises...
All recent happenings make me remember when my mum was still very weak because of an injury to her leg. 1 day, She came home with blood streaming from her leg. I was shocked... Then i asked..." Not pain meh?". She answered.." So painful that i dont have energy to cry out..." At the moment my heart aches like hell... Imagine ur mum in agony n u only can stand there and do nothing bout it... Cos at the time we were all young. She have to return to work the next day... I sercetly promised myself i will not this kind of thing happen again...
My parents have to work so hard to bring us up... 4 kids to 4 adults. How tough can it get? Now we are all ready to return the kindness but they still have to suffer... Everyday my mom still have to work and also take care of my dad, while my dad have to go tru the dialysis... But me? I dont even have time to spare cos of my work n also cant help in the financial area... USELESS!!!!!!!!!!
Been struggling wif work these few days. After waking up 7.30am go work, reach home 11pm plus... After that i still need to study till 1 at least... Almost died halfway, but i tell myself dun give up...N i glad to make it tru... (now neck also abrasion cos i been wearing tie all the while~)
Then came the breaking news, shah (my very gum colleague) says he gonna quit soon, yesterday jus send in first resume. I know its only matter of time that we part, but it is too sudden. But i understand his decision, his daughter jus born n yet he dun have the time to spend wif her~ Really ke lian, sigh
Come to think of it my company is like 人间炼狱(hell). No doubt, going tru it will make u stronger but how many can really go and return in one piece? Only left is a strong but battered soul~
A list of those who came n gone... 1. Don (the only chinese trainer around, but he left after 2 mths, my senior) 2. Herman(a malay guy, left in 3 days) 3. Savada(indian lady wif a slang i cant catch...left in a week zhun zhun) 4. ? (a malay guy, din catch his name cos he came n left on the same day...) Admin 1. Zoe (left after 1 mth plus, now go back hk to study) 2. Audrey (left in a week... part time, boss relative) 3. ? (again a malay girl, one day den poof, gone) 4. Priscillia (gone in 2 weeks....)
Now shah also going... Sigh...I only work for 6 mth n i seen so many people go. Although i will also go in the end.... Maybe after the end of the yr, most will leave... Even my da shi xiong also say he will nt stay for too long~
But i do have many fond memories there also~ Alas the management too demanding... Going crazy liao if i stay too long
Fri was my off remember? I actually remained virtually glued to the floor whole day long... cos i playing my winning eleven, n i cant seem to stop until 4 plus... Darn, i forgot the time, was planning to go down to california for one last time... But heck, i still haven recover from my aches frm the last workout(i know, this is jus my excuse)
I searched tru practiacally everywhere for a dvd. From kino,hmv to cine... but to no avail~ sigh...
The only important event for the day - meet frens for karaoke... (expectedly) But it was really fun though, cos there are 2 guys n 2 gals in the group. Sing duet still can challenge each other, this is the first time i tried this~ (Xiong tian ping songs really very hard le... almost duan qi)
Then we went to pub play big 2, been so long since i played this. Reminded me of the days where in camp we played till 4 plus then 6 plus wake up...Crazy but those days were really meaningless if we dun indulge in something~ (stop thinkin of the past...) The hua quan n 'xi shua shua' i really dun know how to play sia... Struggle to catch (i almost brain-dead at that time(2plus le)... n somemore my 'opponent' so pro... But i promise nxt time i will do better, mus train a bit :) Must be i eat too much after that, go home keep dreaming of the people n events that happen jus now... I 'start half dreaming and half slping' at 4 plus but...woke up at 7~ Tired ar... But its all worth it :P or shud i say i ask for it myself...?
Sunday again karaoke. but the fun is another kind, wif all guys we can shout n rant as loud as we want. Shiok, release stress~ Working really sian, esp. if working for small company. Mus bao san bao hai... But frankly the exposure is good... but too much will get cancer..(haha) Sometimes jus sitting round a table and talk feels really good.
Now my stomach is havinh an uprising again... super pain...T_T
These few days feelin bit down cos my body is aching frm the sunburnt n face is peeling off... Sad~ With some many things nearing deadline i can actually feel my boss breathing down my neck.
Was feeling down until yesterday. Cos i actually went to California Fitness le (all thx to clara), really an eye opener. (but not after a VERY long sales talk b4 i am allowed in...) The environment's great plus the machines is fun even the people there are nice also. Thoroughly enjoyed myself... Forgotten all the stress... I seriously lack of muscles now... my weight keep dipping, fats getting more but muscle getting less... worse scenario~ I was really considering bout it as a long term thing. But 80 bucks per mth is quite steep ar~ N i dun even have time to slp... So i think its better to hold this decision until i have more time...Otherwise wasted. After gym go eat something so reach home was almost 12 le... Cant slp plus blogger got prob, n i cant even blog...Sian
Is your birthday day 25 of the month? Your Life You are a warrior. No obstacle can stop you from reaching your goal. You always keep yourself busy. This quality plus your responsibility will eventually bring you success. Your Love You adore your partner as the number one priority. You value your love one more than yourself. Your love is the greatest of all and your have potential to get married young. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Warrior, yes but without brain...Sigh Eventually bring success...? Which mean i mus wait long long ar... Ya, i will value my partner as the most important..i swear by it~ Marry young...? Got people want then say :P
Tomorrow planning to go gym, maybe for one last time see if my stand will waver. Will be lookin for Advent Children DVD also... Was supposed to play mj tru the night tomorrow, but due to some unforseen circumstances it have to be cancelled, sad. Dunno wat to do sia~ 1 guy n 2 ladies can go where...? To audz: But i really appreciate that u still willing to accompany me though u so tired~
Sunday going k... better then fly kite hor. *pointin to kbox kaki* or i ......
Yesterday went to sentosa wif a bunch of people i never seen before. It is actually an forum outing, only know them behind com. Since nuthing to do plus i been wanting to go sentosa, why nt?
It turns out really well. Jus go there tok tok, play frisbee, volleyball, look at babes (got one really look like some movie star... everyone attention is on her, haha). Volleyball is still my prefered thing to do there...maybe the babes nt pretty enuff, haha. The sand is bloody hot... my soles are like tepannyaki... Make 15 more frens in a day, i really now have prob remembering names n faces now... Girls name i will remember though :P
Today go work, whole company know where i been to cos i look like lobster... obvious. Pain but really shiok, feel alive... Dun dare to move much though... but everyone touch here touch there, ouch~
clara say she impressed dat i remember things so long ago, i din specially remember but cos its a big day for me on dat day. Cos its the final exam i took in poly... hei gou aka kbok kaki say he wanna intro me a girl who look like LLL(her initial)... then jw aka the bday boy aka bus 31 kaki aka aussie say he saw someone who look like her in aus... unbelieveble... her face so common meh?
Work again alot of sia gang... now i expert liao, mount projector by myself. Almost fell from the ladder though....but super demoralised lo, so many shit to do...
Btw after this week i will be even more busy. Mon to fri nite will have lessons le... So this week i will be going all out~
Today was chatting wif clara on msn then i suddenly realize... I known her for 4 yrs plus le...gasp (Aug 25th 2001, why i remember? I wrote diary n this day was my last exam in poly, haha). Cant remember much wat i do these 4 yrs... think i have live in vain sia...
I remember i did my attachment at a website company... but dun rem much~ Arnold n joyce... I do rem the place, the feeling n the people... though all is gone now. Those days were really no worry n no stress.
Then came army, lives were repetitive. Lucky i found a bunch of really gum frens. Really go tru thick n thin... play mahjong, play dai dee, repair vehicles, play soccer n even bath together. haha. I really treasure the piece of buddyship veri much. But cos of the lack of time and commitment, some have oredi become a distant memories sigh... Still remember my glory act. That is to confront a super pai kia sergent (also my direct superior). He did something wrong, nobody dare to stand up as always, but my i cant take it lying down n reasoned him confidently n anger... From then on my army frens all say i 超级赛亚人。。。 haha ~ N the sgt actually treat me very well frm then on. We actually can go out together in a grp after that...Amazing.
Out of army till now almost 10 mths le. Frankly i learnt alot of things, regardless of 做人 or 做工. Cos many things (good n bad) also happened... I have to be more mature. Know many nice people and truely enjoyed my freedom~ Thx~
After dawning till 4am to finish the jap drama, Pride. Really good show, makes me think of many things. Also make me more determined to do something. Wont it be sad if u din go all out to get something u wanted n u failed. U will only live to regret rite. I seem to think it tru le, no pt clinging on useless tots. Move on, without a her, life can still be as 精彩~ (doesan't mean i wont go for it when i found her hor :)
Btw who wanna go out this sun? Come jio me le~ Go karaoke? Mahjong? (both long time nvr do le) Or else i will be going sentosa le, i cant stay at home on sun~
Yesterday sunday n i practically stay at home whole day doing nuthing (see tv, play games, studying etc.) At night even worse, my sis overseas workin, elder bro in hk honeymoon, young bro bookin in... Maybe i used to the crowd in my home, 10pm and nobody is awake... Suddenly feel the overwhelming of loneliness. Sigh, being alone is really a torture, i will be lying if i say i dun mind nt having anyone by my side...
So qiao, a 'emo' person called me to tell me bout her probs, of cos i happy that i have someone to talk to at that time. We chatted till 3 plus... While i console her, she encourage me... Now i truely understand man n woman really diff. Somethings seems so obvious to guys, while gals will nvr understand~ Though tired, but the feelings great. (Call me anytime if u need a listening ears, i will be glad to be able to provide that n lets emo together~ haha)
Actually i am thinkin...I nt so bad ma... i jus unlucky alwis know people at the wrong time...Sigh i quite picky also la...Or maybe i jus haven meet her yet ba... or have i already missed it...? (Argh)
If i old liao, i think maybe i will lelong myself liao... haha i cant stand lonely. Going for 1 yen, anyone?
Yes, today i also working till 5 plus... But lucky this class quite responsive. Can feel being appreciated when teaching them, sense of satisfaction~ But hor, see the web class always have pretty girls. Sigh, think i wont be able to teach web anymore because of my commitments. No more pretty gals to know, sob sob~ Keke
After work, need to unwind. Went all the way to tamp... (slept all the way there :p) So qiao liam also there...met up n introduce me to his fren, n again he intro me like a cartoon character..."he is a bing, aka gummy bear,teddy bear or ewok..." Wat the hell.... I look like bear so much meh? Cos so many people have said that... I shud be happy or sad...? Saw my former neighbour also...ya tamp still can meet...though we live in kallang. More n more a-lian...sigh Third time qiao, actually met zj at comics connection.... Tamp is really my second home~
Today actually to celebrate hei gou bday, in the end we end up in bedok 85 hawker centre. So long nvr been there liao~ We jus order n order till cannot finish. Got fish head soup, gong bao ji ding, hao jian, carrot cake, chicken wings, satay, wu xiang, stingray etc. N we only 4 people...Stuffed myself silly. Think tomolo sure die...eat so many chilly~ Long time nvr eat until so song liao, haha~ Sit there tok kok sing song~ Dats the way of life. Glad to hear all of us have a direction in life and we are working towards it hardworkingly....
On bus hear a girl tok about her dream, that is to be a singer, then go into acting and DJ...gasp. Then i turn round see a little girl around 16....Sigh mus be the effect of Project Superstar... Wake up la....Xiao mei, study first....
To Ah Lians, Your beautiful face no fight,Silky hair everybody like,Your horse figure no horse run,Big big eyes, small small mouth, cannot tahan,One word, marry wife follow wife, marry cat follow cat,You go there, I go there.If you are the moon, I'm the star beside you.If you are a flower, I'm the leave of your flower,When you exercise, I'm your sweat at the armpit,If you are shit, I'm the fly,When you are bathing, I'm the soap,To sky mountain sea corner,You are my woman this lifetime.
Corny but funny rite~
First time celebrate happy teacher's day for the first time in my life... Mixed feelin... Feel happy but i STILL have to work lo. Btw nowadays i wearing tie during my lesson... super uncomfortable but the students liked it. So i be shopping for ties soon...
Today also got the 绝对 superstar grand final. Again i onli managed to see the results... But frm the short clips, i can see that they are gd. Gian for karaoke but a fu remind me i jus sang last monday... rite hor, mus contol a bit... argh
btw the title i put 我真的受伤了 is because i heard the song n he sang it real nice, nt dat i hurt or something, keke. I first known this song when ktv wif ander, then ron, now even super star...in like within a month. So qiao. (Maybe 上天暗示 me something? Tellin me i actually '我真的受伤了'... maybe so... or shud it be 遍体鳞伤 will be betta, both physically n mentally....haha)
No point carry on dreamin if u know u will wake up wif unbearable hurt.... I have decided to wake up, u leh? (refering to someone in particular)
Life goes on as usual~ Whether its bitter or sweet.
For those who worried bout me, thx. Although i know many dun bother at all... :( Anway i now okay, i take things in my stride. No pt dwelling But i must thx audz, who actually call to care for me (i promise u nxt time u got any prob call me, i'll be there~ but limited to one time only ok, cos ur home bit far le...haha)
Finally i'm done wif my hectic 9-10pm schedule... for the time being. Actually when u work, no nid eat, can trim fats... cos i avg 1-2 meals. But think eat too many instant noodles these few days... a bit addicted liao... my mee taste better each time
Strange ar, singapore so small meh? One of my student actually same sp batch as me again... and even smaller world. And today i actually see a crush of mine when during my poly days... edm classmate, but jus cant rem her name. (maybe cos the crush last veri short ba...) Very pretty le. After so many yrs like no change. I would have said 'hi' if i rem her name... haiz. think i'm totally brainwashed by the army... poor memory~
Tomorrow off, but dunno wat to do... Prob go for a haircut (almost 2 mth le... sigh, no time) then rot at home. Dun feel like going out cos i still nid to be back office by 5 plus... wats the pt?
One of my good fren actually commit suicide for his gf... omg... He alwis been those playboy type n i cant believe that he actually done that... for this girl Din know love can make one so fragile... But if it was me will i do that...? No. I will be willing to die protecting things i love but not willing to die after losing the things i love... Not worth it...
Have u ever felt helpless and useless before? I have, even at this very moment. On the outside i seem to be doing well, smiling and enjoying life. But deep down i feel so tired... so tired of being happy-go-lucky, so tired of cheering up people. Work have been tough sometimes even unbearable but i jus have withstand the pressure. I never tell anything to my family no matter how.
Cos i know they are troubled enuff. Elder bro lookin for work, sis abroad working, young bro in army suffering. My dad health hasn't be good. From my poly days we have to bring him to the hospital frequently. While people were enjoying their vacations, i have to stay at the hospital the whole day witing... Hated that feeling, but deep down i know, this cant be helped... not anyone fault.
Now come the big blow.... Just like the drama serials, something worse have to come down. Now my dad need dialysis... Ya, now i realised why so many people are to NKF. Cos 1 session cost a hefty 260+... And a week have to do a few times... Hopefully NKF can help or else it is impossible to sustain. even though my sis n i is working. Wat can i do wif my petty income...? I am prepared to use all my savings if the need arises...
All recent happenings make me remember when my mum was still very weak because of an injury to her leg. 1 day, She came home with blood streaming from her leg. I was shocked... Then i asked..." Not pain meh?". She answered.." So painful that i dont have energy to cry out..." At the moment my heart aches like hell... Imagine ur mum in agony n u only can stand there and do nothing bout it... Cos at the time we were all young. She have to return to work the next day... I sercetly promised myself i will not this kind of thing happen again...
My parents have to work so hard to bring us up... 4 kids to 4 adults. How tough can it get? Now we are all ready to return the kindness but they still have to suffer... Everyday my mom still have to work and also take care of my dad, while my dad have to go tru the dialysis... But me? I dont even have time to spare cos of my work n also cant help in the financial area... USELESS!!!!!!!!!!
Been struggling wif work these few days. After waking up 7.30am go work, reach home 11pm plus... After that i still need to study till 1 at least... Almost died halfway, but i tell myself dun give up...N i glad to make it tru... (now neck also abrasion cos i been wearing tie all the while~)
Then came the breaking news, shah (my very gum colleague) says he gonna quit soon, yesterday jus send in first resume. I know its only matter of time that we part, but it is too sudden. But i understand his decision, his daughter jus born n yet he dun have the time to spend wif her~ Really ke lian, sigh
Come to think of it my company is like 人间炼狱(hell). No doubt, going tru it will make u stronger but how many can really go and return in one piece? Only left is a strong but battered soul~
A list of those who came n gone... 1. Don (the only chinese trainer around, but he left after 2 mths, my senior) 2. Herman(a malay guy, left in 3 days) 3. Savada(indian lady wif a slang i cant catch...left in a week zhun zhun) 4. ? (a malay guy, din catch his name cos he came n left on the same day...) Admin 1. Zoe (left after 1 mth plus, now go back hk to study) 2. Audrey (left in a week... part time, boss relative) 3. ? (again a malay girl, one day den poof, gone) 4. Priscillia (gone in 2 weeks....)
Now shah also going... Sigh...I only work for 6 mth n i seen so many people go. Although i will also go in the end.... Maybe after the end of the yr, most will leave... Even my da shi xiong also say he will nt stay for too long~
But i do have many fond memories there also~ Alas the management too demanding... Going crazy liao if i stay too long
Fri was my off remember? I actually remained virtually glued to the floor whole day long... cos i playing my winning eleven, n i cant seem to stop until 4 plus... Darn, i forgot the time, was planning to go down to california for one last time... But heck, i still haven recover from my aches frm the last workout(i know, this is jus my excuse)
I searched tru practiacally everywhere for a dvd. From kino,hmv to cine... but to no avail~ sigh...
The only important event for the day - meet frens for karaoke... (expectedly) But it was really fun though, cos there are 2 guys n 2 gals in the group. Sing duet still can challenge each other, this is the first time i tried this~ (Xiong tian ping songs really very hard le... almost duan qi)
Then we went to pub play big 2, been so long since i played this. Reminded me of the days where in camp we played till 4 plus then 6 plus wake up...Crazy but those days were really meaningless if we dun indulge in something~ (stop thinkin of the past...) The hua quan n 'xi shua shua' i really dun know how to play sia... Struggle to catch (i almost brain-dead at that time(2plus le)... n somemore my 'opponent' so pro... But i promise nxt time i will do better, mus train a bit :) Must be i eat too much after that, go home keep dreaming of the people n events that happen jus now... I 'start half dreaming and half slping' at 4 plus but...woke up at 7~ Tired ar... But its all worth it :P or shud i say i ask for it myself...?
Sunday again karaoke. but the fun is another kind, wif all guys we can shout n rant as loud as we want. Shiok, release stress~ Working really sian, esp. if working for small company. Mus bao san bao hai... But frankly the exposure is good... but too much will get cancer..(haha) Sometimes jus sitting round a table and talk feels really good.
Now my stomach is havinh an uprising again... super pain...T_T
These few days feelin bit down cos my body is aching frm the sunburnt n face is peeling off... Sad~ With some many things nearing deadline i can actually feel my boss breathing down my neck.
Was feeling down until yesterday. Cos i actually went to California Fitness le (all thx to clara), really an eye opener. (but not after a VERY long sales talk b4 i am allowed in...) The environment's great plus the machines is fun even the people there are nice also. Thoroughly enjoyed myself... Forgotten all the stress... I seriously lack of muscles now... my weight keep dipping, fats getting more but muscle getting less... worse scenario~ I was really considering bout it as a long term thing. But 80 bucks per mth is quite steep ar~ N i dun even have time to slp... So i think its better to hold this decision until i have more time...Otherwise wasted. After gym go eat something so reach home was almost 12 le... Cant slp plus blogger got prob, n i cant even blog...Sian
Is your birthday day 25 of the month? Your Life You are a warrior. No obstacle can stop you from reaching your goal. You always keep yourself busy. This quality plus your responsibility will eventually bring you success. Your Love You adore your partner as the number one priority. You value your love one more than yourself. Your love is the greatest of all and your have potential to get married young. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Warrior, yes but without brain...Sigh Eventually bring success...? Which mean i mus wait long long ar... Ya, i will value my partner as the most important..i swear by it~ Marry young...? Got people want then say :P
Tomorrow planning to go gym, maybe for one last time see if my stand will waver. Will be lookin for Advent Children DVD also... Was supposed to play mj tru the night tomorrow, but due to some unforseen circumstances it have to be cancelled, sad. Dunno wat to do sia~ 1 guy n 2 ladies can go where...? To audz: But i really appreciate that u still willing to accompany me though u so tired~
Sunday going k... better then fly kite hor. *pointin to kbox kaki* or i ......
Yesterday went to sentosa wif a bunch of people i never seen before. It is actually an forum outing, only know them behind com. Since nuthing to do plus i been wanting to go sentosa, why nt?
It turns out really well. Jus go there tok tok, play frisbee, volleyball, look at babes (got one really look like some movie star... everyone attention is on her, haha). Volleyball is still my prefered thing to do there...maybe the babes nt pretty enuff, haha. The sand is bloody hot... my soles are like tepannyaki... Make 15 more frens in a day, i really now have prob remembering names n faces now... Girls name i will remember though :P
Today go work, whole company know where i been to cos i look like lobster... obvious. Pain but really shiok, feel alive... Dun dare to move much though... but everyone touch here touch there, ouch~
clara say she impressed dat i remember things so long ago, i din specially remember but cos its a big day for me on dat day. Cos its the final exam i took in poly... hei gou aka kbok kaki say he wanna intro me a girl who look like LLL(her initial)... then jw aka the bday boy aka bus 31 kaki aka aussie say he saw someone who look like her in aus... unbelieveble... her face so common meh?
Work again alot of sia gang... now i expert liao, mount projector by myself. Almost fell from the ladder though....but super demoralised lo, so many shit to do...
Btw after this week i will be even more busy. Mon to fri nite will have lessons le... So this week i will be going all out~
Today was chatting wif clara on msn then i suddenly realize... I known her for 4 yrs plus le...gasp (Aug 25th 2001, why i remember? I wrote diary n this day was my last exam in poly, haha). Cant remember much wat i do these 4 yrs... think i have live in vain sia...
I remember i did my attachment at a website company... but dun rem much~ Arnold n joyce... I do rem the place, the feeling n the people... though all is gone now. Those days were really no worry n no stress.
Then came army, lives were repetitive. Lucky i found a bunch of really gum frens. Really go tru thick n thin... play mahjong, play dai dee, repair vehicles, play soccer n even bath together. haha. I really treasure the piece of buddyship veri much. But cos of the lack of time and commitment, some have oredi become a distant memories sigh... Still remember my glory act. That is to confront a super pai kia sergent (also my direct superior). He did something wrong, nobody dare to stand up as always, but my i cant take it lying down n reasoned him confidently n anger... From then on my army frens all say i 超级赛亚人。。。 haha ~ N the sgt actually treat me very well frm then on. We actually can go out together in a grp after that...Amazing.
Out of army till now almost 10 mths le. Frankly i learnt alot of things, regardless of 做人 or 做工. Cos many things (good n bad) also happened... I have to be more mature. Know many nice people and truely enjoyed my freedom~ Thx~
After dawning till 4am to finish the jap drama, Pride. Really good show, makes me think of many things. Also make me more determined to do something. Wont it be sad if u din go all out to get something u wanted n u failed. U will only live to regret rite. I seem to think it tru le, no pt clinging on useless tots. Move on, without a her, life can still be as 精彩~ (doesan't mean i wont go for it when i found her hor :)
Btw who wanna go out this sun? Come jio me le~ Go karaoke? Mahjong? (both long time nvr do le) Or else i will be going sentosa le, i cant stay at home on sun~
Yesterday sunday n i practically stay at home whole day doing nuthing (see tv, play games, studying etc.) At night even worse, my sis overseas workin, elder bro in hk honeymoon, young bro bookin in... Maybe i used to the crowd in my home, 10pm and nobody is awake... Suddenly feel the overwhelming of loneliness. Sigh, being alone is really a torture, i will be lying if i say i dun mind nt having anyone by my side...
So qiao, a 'emo' person called me to tell me bout her probs, of cos i happy that i have someone to talk to at that time. We chatted till 3 plus... While i console her, she encourage me... Now i truely understand man n woman really diff. Somethings seems so obvious to guys, while gals will nvr understand~ Though tired, but the feelings great. (Call me anytime if u need a listening ears, i will be glad to be able to provide that n lets emo together~ haha)
Actually i am thinkin...I nt so bad ma... i jus unlucky alwis know people at the wrong time...Sigh i quite picky also la...Or maybe i jus haven meet her yet ba... or have i already missed it...? (Argh)
If i old liao, i think maybe i will lelong myself liao... haha i cant stand lonely. Going for 1 yen, anyone?
Yes, today i also working till 5 plus... But lucky this class quite responsive. Can feel being appreciated when teaching them, sense of satisfaction~ But hor, see the web class always have pretty girls. Sigh, think i wont be able to teach web anymore because of my commitments. No more pretty gals to know, sob sob~ Keke
After work, need to unwind. Went all the way to tamp... (slept all the way there :p) So qiao liam also there...met up n introduce me to his fren, n again he intro me like a cartoon character..."he is a bing, aka gummy bear,teddy bear or ewok..." Wat the hell.... I look like bear so much meh? Cos so many people have said that... I shud be happy or sad...? Saw my former neighbour also...ya tamp still can meet...though we live in kallang. More n more a-lian...sigh Third time qiao, actually met zj at comics connection.... Tamp is really my second home~
Today actually to celebrate hei gou bday, in the end we end up in bedok 85 hawker centre. So long nvr been there liao~ We jus order n order till cannot finish. Got fish head soup, gong bao ji ding, hao jian, carrot cake, chicken wings, satay, wu xiang, stingray etc. N we only 4 people...Stuffed myself silly. Think tomolo sure die...eat so many chilly~ Long time nvr eat until so song liao, haha~ Sit there tok kok sing song~ Dats the way of life. Glad to hear all of us have a direction in life and we are working towards it hardworkingly....
On bus hear a girl tok about her dream, that is to be a singer, then go into acting and DJ...gasp. Then i turn round see a little girl around 16....Sigh mus be the effect of Project Superstar... Wake up la....Xiao mei, study first....
To Ah Lians, Your beautiful face no fight,Silky hair everybody like,Your horse figure no horse run,Big big eyes, small small mouth, cannot tahan,One word, marry wife follow wife, marry cat follow cat,You go there, I go there.If you are the moon, I'm the star beside you.If you are a flower, I'm the leave of your flower,When you exercise, I'm your sweat at the armpit,If you are shit, I'm the fly,When you are bathing, I'm the soap,To sky mountain sea corner,You are my woman this lifetime.
Corny but funny rite~
First time celebrate happy teacher's day for the first time in my life... Mixed feelin... Feel happy but i STILL have to work lo. Btw nowadays i wearing tie during my lesson... super uncomfortable but the students liked it. So i be shopping for ties soon...
Today also got the 绝对 superstar grand final. Again i onli managed to see the results... But frm the short clips, i can see that they are gd. Gian for karaoke but a fu remind me i jus sang last monday... rite hor, mus contol a bit... argh
btw the title i put 我真的受伤了 is because i heard the song n he sang it real nice, nt dat i hurt or something, keke. I first known this song when ktv wif ander, then ron, now even super star...in like within a month. So qiao. (Maybe 上天暗示 me something? Tellin me i actually '我真的受伤了'... maybe so... or shud it be 遍体鳞伤 will be betta, both physically n mentally....haha)
No point carry on dreamin if u know u will wake up wif unbearable hurt.... I have decided to wake up, u leh? (refering to someone in particular)