Have u ever felt helpless and useless before? I have, even at this very moment. On the outside i seem to be doing well, smiling and enjoying life. But deep down i feel so tired... so tired of being happy-go-lucky, so tired of cheering up people. Work have been tough sometimes even unbearable but i jus have withstand the pressure. I never tell anything to my family no matter how.
Cos i know they are troubled enuff. Elder bro lookin for work, sis abroad working, young bro in army suffering. My dad health hasn't be good. From my poly days we have to bring him to the hospital frequently. While people were enjoying their vacations, i have to stay at the hospital the whole day witing... Hated that feeling, but deep down i know, this cant be helped... not anyone fault.
Now come the big blow.... Just like the drama serials, something worse have to come down. Now my dad need dialysis... Ya, now i realised why so many people are to NKF. Cos 1 session cost a hefty 260+... And a week have to do a few times... Hopefully NKF can help or else it is impossible to sustain. even though my sis n i is working. Wat can i do wif my petty income...? I am prepared to use all my savings if the need arises...
All recent happenings make me remember when my mum was still very weak because of an injury to her leg. 1 day, She came home with blood streaming from her leg. I was shocked... Then i asked..." Not pain meh?". She answered.." So painful that i dont have energy to cry out..." At the moment my heart aches like hell... Imagine ur mum in agony n u only can stand there and do nothing bout it... Cos at the time we were all young. She have to return to work the next day... I sercetly promised myself i will not this kind of thing happen again...
My parents have to work so hard to bring us up... 4 kids to 4 adults. How tough can it get? Now we are all ready to return the kindness but they still have to suffer... Everyday my mom still have to work and also take care of my dad, while my dad have to go tru the dialysis... But me? I dont even have time to spare cos of my work n also cant help in the financial area... USELESS!!!!!!!!!!
Have u ever felt helpless and useless before? I have, even at this very moment. On the outside i seem to be doing well, smiling and enjoying life. But deep down i feel so tired... so tired of being happy-go-lucky, so tired of cheering up people. Work have been tough sometimes even unbearable but i jus have withstand the pressure. I never tell anything to my family no matter how.
Cos i know they are troubled enuff. Elder bro lookin for work, sis abroad working, young bro in army suffering. My dad health hasn't be good. From my poly days we have to bring him to the hospital frequently. While people were enjoying their vacations, i have to stay at the hospital the whole day witing... Hated that feeling, but deep down i know, this cant be helped... not anyone fault.
Now come the big blow.... Just like the drama serials, something worse have to come down. Now my dad need dialysis... Ya, now i realised why so many people are to NKF. Cos 1 session cost a hefty 260+... And a week have to do a few times... Hopefully NKF can help or else it is impossible to sustain. even though my sis n i is working. Wat can i do wif my petty income...? I am prepared to use all my savings if the need arises...
All recent happenings make me remember when my mum was still very weak because of an injury to her leg. 1 day, She came home with blood streaming from her leg. I was shocked... Then i asked..." Not pain meh?". She answered.." So painful that i dont have energy to cry out..." At the moment my heart aches like hell... Imagine ur mum in agony n u only can stand there and do nothing bout it... Cos at the time we were all young. She have to return to work the next day... I sercetly promised myself i will not this kind of thing happen again...
My parents have to work so hard to bring us up... 4 kids to 4 adults. How tough can it get? Now we are all ready to return the kindness but they still have to suffer... Everyday my mom still have to work and also take care of my dad, while my dad have to go tru the dialysis... But me? I dont even have time to spare cos of my work n also cant help in the financial area... USELESS!!!!!!!!!!
