Haizz... really feelin fatigued nowadays 3 of the weekdays i'm out of home b4 7am but 8pm is about the earliest i reach home... In between the breaks (actually i study bout 4hrs per day nia =x) i mug... When at home i continue my mugging, but still my assignments are piling up... Cant really concentrate as much as i hoped to wif so many things happening...
In school i cant really establish a strong bond wif anyone yet... Maybe cos of our diff schedules or cos we jus know each other or.. simply cant click =x During my breaks, i tend to find a quiet corner n study by myself... Sometimes i jus feel so lonely... imagine... 7hrs alone...?
Today something happened.. my mood totally gone rock bottom... i only eat like half a meal whole day... felt so helpless... keep worrying even till i'm feelin sick i've done wat i can... the rest is not up to me anymore... Btw my fren...shawn whom i know during my army days has jus passed away... He is a yr younger den me.. n that also makes 2 frens lost on the road for these 2 yrs He was quite a nice guy... Anyway.. i really dun wish to dwell on it. But i cant understand.. when he is alive, nobody care bout him... When he is gone, suddenly everyone miss him (even those whom hated him)... I dun wanna make my mood worse so i din wanna turn up for the wake... Hope he can understand...
Another cruel reminder to cherish those around you... Life's is so unpredictable.. i dont really know how much time i have... So i try to get the most out of each day.. (at least 75% =X) Was thinkin if i die... how my family know who to ask to come fto my wake? Cos i believe... if i die.. it is hardly being noticed.. haha *maybe must compile a guest list first... and prepare the menu for the day =x *or even a list of things that die die must burn to me.. =x
12:15 am
Saturday, August 26
Haizz... really feelin fatigued nowadays 3 of the weekdays i'm out of home b4 7am but 8pm is about the earliest i reach home... In between the breaks (actually i study bout 4hrs per day nia =x) i mug... When at home i continue my mugging, but still my assignments are piling up... Cant really concentrate as much as i hoped to wif so many things happening...
In school i cant really establish a strong bond wif anyone yet... Maybe cos of our diff schedules or cos we jus know each other or.. simply cant click =x During my breaks, i tend to find a quiet corner n study by myself... Sometimes i jus feel so lonely... imagine... 7hrs alone...?
Today something happened.. my mood totally gone rock bottom... i only eat like half a meal whole day... felt so helpless... keep worrying even till i'm feelin sick i've done wat i can... the rest is not up to me anymore... Btw my fren...shawn whom i know during my army days has jus passed away... He is a yr younger den me.. n that also makes 2 frens lost on the road for these 2 yrs He was quite a nice guy... Anyway.. i really dun wish to dwell on it. But i cant understand.. when he is alive, nobody care bout him... When he is gone, suddenly everyone miss him (even those whom hated him)... I dun wanna make my mood worse so i din wanna turn up for the wake... Hope he can understand...
Another cruel reminder to cherish those around you... Life's is so unpredictable.. i dont really know how much time i have... So i try to get the most out of each day.. (at least 75% =X) Was thinkin if i die... how my family know who to ask to come fto my wake? Cos i believe... if i die.. it is hardly being noticed.. haha *maybe must compile a guest list first... and prepare the menu for the day =x *or even a list of things that die die must burn to me.. =x
